Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Band of Horses

It's been years since I've bought actual CD's but I've recently started buying them again - only the ones I absolutely love. I got a pretty awesome one in the mail today. :)

I first discovered Band of Horses shortly after I moved out on my own with the kids last March. From the minute I heard them I was in LOVE. I seem to do that a lot...with everything. Sometimes a good thing, other times, not so good. But I digress....:)

Listening to the CD 'Infinite Arms' right now makes me feel SO nostalgic for last summer. It makes me cry hot salty tears. At the time, I was feeling a strange combination of fear and exhilaration at being free....starting a completely new life and having no idea what to expect really. It was the same kind of feeling that I imagine jumping off a cliff would feel like.

I was happy and I could breathe again.

I played these songs late on hot summer nights with the windows open and a cool breeze blowing through while I puttered happily around in my new kitchen. I blared them while driving up and down gravel roads with the kids. Every single song on that CD is awesome.

 I can't believe how quickly those months went by now that I think back on it. I kept it together really well and I barely shed a tear. I kept my head up and I stayed strong. There was no sorrow or regret. I think I was holding my breath a lot during that entire time. It's all starting to trickle out now a little.

Ever do that thing where something strikes you as SO funny and you're laughing so hard and then it just turns into a weird kind of sobbing/laughing? Yeah...I did that today while watching Spongebob Squarepants of all things. The kids were like 'Mom, what's so funny?' I couldn't even answer because I was laugh-sobbing too hard. Yeah, if you're a mother you know exactly what I'm talking about ;)

I have no idea what lies ahead...its always an adventure that's for sure.  

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