Monday, February 21, 2011

Trying on pants..

After the ending of my 15 year relationship last March, I've been trying to figure out how I FEEL about things now. And guess what? I've determined that I feel great! Where once my chest was filled with a constant feeling of anxiety and unhappiness, there is now a calmness about me that I haven't felt in years. 

I remember graduating from highschool, being thrown out into the real world and not having a clue as to what I wanted to do. While all of my friends immediately entered university, I found myself working various unsatisfying jobs and trying to figure out my next move.  I decided to just BE and stop fretting over it. By the next summer I got a job at the drive-in theatre (best job EVER), met a ton of great friends and just let myself have fun. I kissed boys, read some really good books, probably drank too much and was just a really happy person. 

Recently I feel like I've been transported back to how I felt at that time. I'm that 19 year old girl again - but with 3 kids and whole hell of a lot more life experience. :)  I'm focusing on just being fully myself no matter what situation I'm in.

Which brings me to the subject of dating...

I've decided that dating is kind of like shopping for pants. I wish I could be super lucky and have the first ones I try on be a perfect fit. But in harsh reality I think I might have to try lots on before I find a pair that fits. Or maybe I should decide to stop wearing pants altogether. I don't really need them, but it's always nice to have some around you know?    

In other news, the kids have the flu again. I spent all night darting from room to room making sure nobody puked in their beds. I slept in 20 minute intervals but I'm feeling surprisingly perky today despite all that. I'm cruising on caffeine and adrenaline...and probably a little bit of insanity. :)

I've opened up my Etsy shop again and I've got some new jewelry projects on the go. I've also excitedly set up my sewing machine and have been practicing a little bit. I have piles of fabric and tons of ideas swirling around in my head - I just have to pick something and DO it.  Maybe I'll sew myself some pants....

Or just get more cats...




2 comments :

  1. She is such a gorgeous cat. :)

    Can't wait to see your new crafty projects!

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