Sunday, June 24, 2012

Single

I've been savouring This I Know - Notes On Unraveling The Heart by Susannah Conway. I save the book for bedtime when the house is silent and I can completely lose myself in it.

Chapter seven talks about learning how to be alone with yourself. This has never really been a problem for me. I LIKE being alone. The word 'boredom' does not exist in my vocabulary. There are too many books to read, pictures to take or naps to have to ever possibly be bored. And did I mention the three kids? They don't LET me ever become bored. They're always full of interesting conversation and hilarious comments. Highly entertaining little people indeed :)
  
This particular line almost made me fall out of bed as I was reading it last night. It summed up exactly how I feel :)  

"I fear the absence of time for myself as much as the absence of future love."

I'm trying to savour each day and the freedom from having to worry about anyone else on top of the three little humans I already have to worry about. I'm content with knowing that life unfolds exactly as it should be and in its own sweet time. Each day is ripe with delightful moments of self-discovery.  No expectations, nothing to chase - just BEING.
Table for one.
"For now she need not think about anybody. She could be herself, by herself. And that was what now she often felt the need of - to think, well, not even to think. To be silent, to be alone."

-Virginia Woolf, From To The Lighthouse

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